Wednesday, February 18, 2015


So, y'all know I have 3 kids, right now... right? I've had 10 foster kids to date, and adopted my daughter, Lil M, when she was 9 months old. I have 2 fosters right now, who I am hoping to adopt sometime this year (spring, even). They are 9 years and 2 years old.

As you can imagine, Lil M is doing pretty well. She's 8 now and typical and precocious... She's a good girl, but can be not-so-nice to her older sister when she gets upset about something. We're working on that, as much as we can, anyway. She's my heart song.

The 2.5 year old is a firecracker. She's a typical 2-yo in a lot of ways, but, boy, does she have a temper. She likes to throw fits. She's adorable, which works to her advantage... she's going to be stubborn and give me a run for my money, I'm afraid. But I love her to pieces.

The 9 year old is the one who is the challenge for me. She came to me when she was 6... almost 3 years ago now. She has attachment issues and this results in lying, stealing, breaking things (like her brand new scrapbook I just let them put together), and taking food without permission. Other people think I'm overreacting... but when she stands in the middle of the kitchen with that look on her face that says she has no idea what she's doing ...when she's done that task tons of times... it's maddening. I do love her, and maybe more importantly, I am committed to her.

Just one example: Imagine a child who knows how to put dishes away from the dishwasher. She comes into the kitchen and starts to put things away. Then she just stands there, mouth agape and acting like she doesn't know what she's doing all of the sudden. Very slow processing. Takes over 1/2 hour to put things away that should take 5-10 minutes. Finally, I give up and tell her to go away so I can get dinner finished and on the table. You say, why does it matter? Well. It matters. She KNOWS how to put things away. I don't understand her brain. Why does she just stop and act like she doesn't know what she's doing? It doesn't seem like her mind is somewhere else, but maybe it is. Maybe it is control. Maybe it is wanting attention. Maybe it isn't any of that... I need to find us a therapist who can help. My concern is that with how much she lies (like breathing some days, and others it is less), I worry that she'll snow a therapist. But I would love to her her and I both some help for this.

I love my life and my girls. Some days are tough, I won't lie.


Tuesday, November 4, 2014

Fall fun

Summer flew... still have my 2 fosters... who i'm planning to adopt when the state is ready... but I won't lie, it's been kind of tough.

Lots of running going on around here... I've done 2 full marathons this year (USAF in Dayton, and Columbus). The girls did quite a few 5k's.

Lil M turned 8 in August. Baby K turned 2 in September (29) and S turned 9 in October (20)...

Tuesday, May 13, 2014

it's already May... time is flying these days

I can't believe how time has flown the past few months. I graduated with my masters one year ago, May 11. It felt like it'd never be done and now it's been a year that it's been over! Crazy.

In that year, I've continued to foster S and K and that's not likely to change anytime soon. As a matter of fact, adoption could be on the horizon... Lil M is 7.5 now and she's doing great. She does struggle sometimes with the siblings, but I think she'd struggle if it were just the two of us, too... overall, she does great and is almost finished with 2nd grade!!

S is 8 and is also finishing 2nd grade. The baby, K, is 19 months old now and has been with me since she was 3 days old. They both have their issues... but we're trying to work through them. I'm not patient or understanding as I should/could be, and that makes me feel bad... but I'm human...

We had great birthdays, Christmas and Easter and Mother's day... Here area  few more pics.


Running pics

Here are some pics of the girls and I and our running fun.

 Dayton river corridor half marathon.

Mason half marathon

Catch Me if You Can half marathon

DAV 5k

Girls on the Run 5k

 Before and after Turkey Trot

After the Turkey Trot on Thanksgiving - I went by myself.
Indy Santa Hustle - girls did 5k, I did the half.

Christmas pics - woefully overdue

Christmas 2013... 

Wednesday, September 4, 2013

Where did the summer go?

I swear I meant to write more. :) I can't believe the last time I wrote I was running my first half of the year and graduating! The summer FLEW by!!

Let's catch up, shall we?

So, I still have 3 fosters in the house, in addition to my best Lil M. S has been with us for over 15 months now. She will be 8 next month! Babykins is 11 months now, can you believe it?? She'll be 1 this month! It's been a crazy ride, for sure.

S and I go to counseling together now. She does have a therapeutic Social Worker, but I just don't think it is enough. So, I found someone else. He will also test her for memory and ADHD and I'll know sometime next month how all that turns out.

S had a good summer. She had the opportunity to do a program at her school for the last month before school started and she loved it. She also continued her Martial Arts program this summer and leveled up two times! She's quite proud of that.

Gosh, I have SO much to share... this is ridiculous!

The teen failed two semesters and is on her last-leg, as they say. We'll see how she does this semester. As I type, she's walking to school... so far, she's not skipped any this semester. Please pray for her, and for my sanity.

Baby Milestones for the summer,
* She has 4 teeth now (still coming in, but getting there!)
* She has been scooting... she doesn't crawl, but, boy, can she SCOOT!! :) The loves to pull up and stand in her crib/playpen. 

Lil M turned 7, yes 7, a week ago!! She, like S, started 2nd grade this fall, too. Lil M's doing well in school and her reading. She's been happily reading the Wizard of Oz to me...which is great, because reading isn't her favorite subject... Math definitely is, though. And we're working on times tables. She also likes spelling. :)

Lil M had a great summer at the Y camp. She is now a 'yellow band' in swimming and is quite proud of that!! When she was a baby and toddler she hated water in her face and it took until she was 5 to get her take a shower. Now, she's a little pro. :) Lil M also had a GREAT time at her Olympic Day this year. She did fantastic in her routines... She did floor, beam, and bars.

We do not know what the future holds, but TPR (termination of parental rights) could happen in the case of my two littles. Pray for us, for the Judge and the biological family, please... While S and I have had our struggles, I do want what is best for them and can't imagine them going back to the situation they came from. Well, I should say where S came from. The baby only knows ME. That's a biggie right there. This could make for a rough next few months, or could go smoothly. I'm praying for more smooth than rough.

We are settling into the school routine and I'm feeling very blessed. Something I have to keep learning and re-learning is that other people do not see our family as a 'real' family... but, I assure you, we are as REAL as it gets.

I have had the opportunity to spend time with Torrie and Gabe this summer, as well as Alea. I took Alea to her college orientation in Frankfort and then Lil M and I moved her down to her dorm at the beginning of the semester. My point is that we are still in relationship with the fosters who have left us... we're not perfect, but we do try to be there.

My prayer for all of us is that we know what family truly means throughout this foster journey. And that we can help others to see the real family (love) we have.

I'll post pics separately... but here's one of after Lil M did a 10K, Alea and S did the 5K and I did the half marathon this summer... we rocked it!! I am so proud of my girls for doing races with me... which has also been pretty new. They usually do the 5K's, but this day, Lil M wanted to do the 10K with Ellen (who was also with us, obviously, but is taking the pic below!). She was the YOUNGEST 10k'er out there that day!! Woot! :)

As for me, I've gotten back into running and back into shape this summer. I started with the program called "Insanity" and then did the half marathon in May. After that, I've done 3 more half marathons and feel better than I have in awhile! 


Monday, May 13, 2013

It is done.

So... last weekend, I did my first half marathon in 6+ years... and this weekend, I graduated with my Masters Degree. What a fabulous week, it was. My girls are THRILLED that I'm done... and my very-wise-friend Ellen suggested that I start training for a marathon... seeing as I have to have a goal on the horizon. I concur. :) So, once I stop feeling crummy (caught something from 2 fosters), I can't wait to get more long runs in!

Here are some pics...

Here are some from graduation day.

Goose is happy Mommy Graduated!

Hugging my last Professor who hooded me.

Don't give Mama a hard time about straight lines, or I'll go all Ninja on ya!

Just me. :)

Two of my favorite people

The gaggle, plus 2.

My other half and I.

I can now say this. :)
I have some amazing family and friends who have supported me through EVERYTHING. I love them more than words could ever say.


Friday, April 26, 2013

2 weeks and a day

I'm so excited that I'm graduating in a couple of weeks!! :) I wish I was more motivated today, but will definitely get my last paper in tonight. We have our group project to finish this week and then I have 2 final exams... done, done, done. :D

Lil M and I did a 5K with my sister, nephew and cousin last week. That was fun!! Lil M wants to do more of those, and that makes this Mama happy!! lol. She's more speedy than her Mama, that's for sure!!

We went to the Zoo yesterday for her field trip. That was also fun. We, then, went to get ice cream and to the park... then she rode her bike while I ran and then ran with me for a bit. It's so great to be able to do all the fun things we do at her age now!! 

Lots going on this spring...

I have a feeling I'll be taking more pics this weekend, lol. :) My friend, Ellen, and I are taking them to see a musical tomorrow night. Lil M wants to go back to the Zoo... but I'm thinking we might find something else to do... like another 5K?? hmmmm. lol. We'll go to the park, for sure...